Ben wants to have a child with me, but after dealing with his kids when he has custody of them-it's a 50/50 split-I have realized that I do not want to do this. The girls are undisciplined tornadoes, and he delegates most of their care to me. They are only with us half the time, and I am wiped out! I cannot imagine dealing with a baby while trying to care for Wilma and Cathy if Ben is going to be such an absentee father.
I stay with my mom during the week and split weekends between her and my dad. From all appearances, my parents get along well. Sometimes my mom will even join all of us for dinner, and she's occasionally watched my siblings for my dad and Inez. I'm super close with my mom. I get along great with Inez, and respect her as my stepmother, but I don't really share personal information with her.
"It was always like, 'Whatever you're into and when you want to have sex, you just let me know and we'll get birth control,'" she said. "It was really healthy, and it made me feel like I was allowed to discover my sexuality on my own, which I think is such a gift," Johnson added.
We both knew there was something special between us. We spoke the language of grief, of solo parents, of young widows who'd lost their forever person to cancer.
