"I cried a lot this morning, because I'm a baddie and grief is non linear and I am so full of love. Grief it's the price I pay to get to feel this depth of love and I would never give my grief away," she wrote.
Michelle believes that if he had been referred for specialist inpatient treatment for his obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), he would still be here today. "The criteria that's set excludes the most vulnerable and disabled patients that are crippled by their OCD. They're the ones that need the help the most but they're the ones that fall through the net," she says.
Katie Gaudreau poignantly expressed, "There are absolutely no words I have to express the bond my family shared. The entire world knows there would never have been a John without Matty or Matty without John." This illustrates the irreplaceable connection between the two brothers and the immense loss felt by their family.