The article explores the struggle of lingering fear and guilt that can hinder one from pursuing happiness and personal achievements. The author reflects on personal experiences of joy interspersed with dread, particularly in familial and financial contexts. This internal conflict is traced back to childhood trauma caused by the abrupt loss of security during wartime, which instilled a belief that joy is fleeting and should be guarded against loss. Through ongoing reflection and learning, the author reveals that these patterns are deeply rooted and require ongoing work to unpack.
"For years, I found myself unintentionally sabotaging moments of pure joy and personal success without being able to embrace them fully."
"I had a constant sense of dread that lingered. One moment, I'd feel exhilarated and at peace, only to be hit with a wave of fear and guilt."
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