You are suffering, yes. You are dealing with a lot, even 11 years later, yes. But you aren't broken beyond repair.
If you haven't been already, please see if an Al-Anon meeting or a Smart Recovery Family meeting feels right to you.
Maybe you're feeling guilt, blame, anger or codependency and those feelings are keeping you from moving forward in your life.
Without processing your feelings around it, it's going to be hard to move ahead.
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