I was a black child raised in a white supremacist cult. When doomsday didn't come, I had to learn how to live

Walker reflects on his childhood aspirations as shaped by his upbringing in a doomsday cult, stating, 'When I was asked what I wanted to be, I thought I was joking but was serious. I wanted to be a god or Captain Marvel.' Despite his innocent ambitions, he felt a heavy burden from the prophecy that foretold the end of the world in 1972.

Walker explains the psychological impact of growing up in a doomsday cult, saying, 'It took me a long time to realize that we were in a doomsday cult, one that was also steeped in white supremacy. My experiences made me feel chosen for ruin rather than salvation and it ruined my youth.'

He candidly speaks about his family's isolation and strict customs, noting, 'We didn't celebrate Christmas or Halloween; we didn't celebrate our own birthdays. We were supposed to keep our difference hidden from the outside world, which felt incredibly isolating.'

Walker reflects on the dichotomies of his upbringing and the eventual realization of its effects on his life, stating, 'While it felt like we were chosen for something grand, it was actually a smothering environment that stifled my youth and dreams of the future.'

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