The article reflects on a woman's journey into motherhood at an older age, starting with her first child at 38 and now expecting her second at 40. She shares her feelings of surprise and disbelief upon discovering her second pregnancy. Despite societal expectations of achieving milestones by a certain age, she grapples with uncertainty about her identity and purpose. The author acknowledges that adulthood isn't as definitive as anticipated and that finding oneself is an ongoing journey, especially in the context of having children later in life.
I always had a lot of expectations about the milestones I'd hit as I got older. Yet here I am, still waiting to know who I am.
Becoming an adult proved not to be the definitive experience I'd anticipated. My sense of self was fuzzy at best.
The decision to have kids didn't stem from certainty but from a realization that I couldn't keep waiting to 'find myself'.
Most days, I still feel like I'm discovering who I am, even as I navigate pregnancy at 40.
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