When Ilona suddenly lost her husband to suicide six years ago, she was heading the customs department of a medium-sized company. Distracting herself with work helped her to bring a sense of normality back into her life, she recalls. Ilona quickly realized that she wouldn't be able to cope with her loss alone so she sought help. A neighbor told her about a support group in Berlin. There, she met Patricia, who's been the group's volunteer leader for over 10 years.
"I don't think I've ever been such a crier. I feel like I cried a lot, all the time," said Lopez. "And PTSD really [messed] with my appetite. It's part of my politics to combat fatphobia, but I lost like 40 pounds."