I assumed my immediate family would always be there. Within three years I lost my beloved Nana and both of my parents. As a cruel coda, my very much alive sister has completely cut me off. Sometimes I feel like the last person on earth.
It's a shock to the system to realize that you, yourself, ARE those family members now. It's very hard to put yourself in the position of a 'matriarch,' etc. because in my mind, I'm still the child of the family.
I love being 36 and am more comfortable with myself than I've ever been, but I will say that my vanity is noticing the wrinkles starting to creep in... I have to remind myself every day to appreciate my face and body the way they are now.
I will also say that I have zero regrets about my decision to not have children because every day I wake up grateful that I am emotionally and financially responsible only for myself and that my free time is my own. It's bliss.
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