"When I met my husband, I was doing an on-again/off-again dance with a man I'll call Noah. The gist of our 10-year relationship was that I wanted to be "on" and he seemed content to be on-again/off-again ... forever. This is not a man I want popping up in my dreams. And yet, even though my marriage is pretty good, as marriages go, I can never seem to get this guy out of my head."
"Sometimes it's Will, a high school flame who was sweet and dorky, and I rejected him for those things as high school girls tend to do. By the time I was smart enough to realize how great it was to have a sweet and dorky guy pursuing you, we were ready to graduate, and he went on to have a successful law career and marry a gorgeous woman who also seems to be very sweet and dorky."
"Many of the dreams veer toward the spicier side, especially those involving my work crush (don't pretend you don't have one). Perhaps those are the most sexual because they feel so forbidden, and they're much more real than the ones that feature a boy from high school I haven't talked to in 15 years. I wake up feeling desired - and wondering if I ever show up in his dreams."
She maintained a ten-year on-again/off-again relationship with a man called Noah while meeting and marrying another man. Her marriage is generally good, but memories and dreams about past lovers repeatedly intrude. Dreams feature different exes: Noah, a high-school flame named Will, a college boyfriend who lives in the suburbs, and a work crush that evokes strong sexual longing. The work-crush dreams feel forbidden and vivid, leaving her to wake feeling desired. The recurring dreams prompt questions about why past relationships failed and occasional what-if fantasies tied to finances and hypothetical future encounters.
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