The author reflects on how memories associated with a specific time, particularly around April 30, evoke profound sadness despite seasonal changes in their current environment. The absence of distinct seasonal markers, like cherry blossoms, contrasts with their emotional turmoil. The notion of 'seasonal memory' suggests a biological connection to emotional experiences, as highlighted by Gabor Mate's idea that the body retains and expresses emotional memory, resulting in ongoing sadness as that date approaches.
My therapist tells me it is seasonal memory. I find it a bit strange, since in the southern hemisphere where I now live, there are no cherry blossoms blooming as they are now in Herbert Park.
Instead, in anticipation of the winter the leaves are changing colour. And still, every year this deep, dark sadness consumes me as we get closer to April 30.
Perhaps, Gabor Mate is right: 'The body does keep the score.'
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