"Breaking down the walls of denial in my DID system of parts has been anything but easy, but it has been necessary to thrive. I was sitting across the table from my closest friend from graduate school as we co-worked. She is also a mob daughter, but from a different lineage. We were discussing how only now, in 2026, am I fully grasping who my father actually was, despite beginning trauma-informed therapy in 2012 and spending a life savings to survive, understand, and heal."
"This integration involves a male part who carries traits that mirror my father. In dissociative identity disorder treatment, this part would be called an introject, specifically an introject of my father. He is aggressive, suspicious, and hypervigilant. His words can be cruel. Unlike my father, however, this part is fiercely protective. He has been fighting for safety for as long as I can remember, even before I knew him."
A dissociative identity disorder system contains parts formed by early abuse, including a part that realized, "I married my father." The speaker was placed into the role of the father's wife as a child and has worked in trauma-informed therapy since 2012 to survive and heal. Another part identified as an introject of the father shows aggression, suspicion, hypervigilance, and cruelty but also fierce protectiveness. That introject steps forward during extreme internal terror to regain control. The part's origins include ritual abuse and mind-control programming to enforce compliance during repeated sexual abuse. Integration (fusion) of parts is underway to reclaim safety and wholeness.
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