If you really want to find the love you know you deserve, then you are going to have to find someone who is ready and willing to provide it. This person is not.
It may take time and even psychological counseling to help you disengage from your fantasy of an idealized life with this woman. But for the sake of your sanity, it's important that you try.
She was interested in you only as a friend and an employee. Asking you to stop communicating with her was a strong message.
She lives here rent-free. All we asked of her was to clean up a little bit around the house. She
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