When we want to make sense of something, we invent a story to try to help us understand, and you've made up the ugly story.
Even if you were not conventional-looking, people who don't fit in with the popular idea of good-looking do pair up.
There is a slight chance, but I can't possibly know just by an email, that you may be under- or over-adapting to other people.
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